कोई लौटा दे वो प्यारे प्यारे दिन

      Now I'm spending the days which I have dreamt off ..2 b independent .. 2 b a proud son .. 2 b a caring brother.. 2 b needy friend ... All together 2 b more responsible ...N fulfilling and worthing those responsibilities.. Still these are my disheartened days !!! ... Which makes me contemplate is this what I have dreamt off ?? Did I lost my golden moments in architecting my future which was greener side on a farther hill den ??...

      Believe me till my class 6th I never read for my exams even as I had my schooling in my village and my school was not an exception 2 any other village schools ...no classes ...no teachers ... no need 2 carry books ..no need 2 study 4 xams burning the mid n8 oil ..xams used 2 b only once a year for the sake of celebrating the academic year completion :) n nyways r paper will not b evaluated ...But 2de m always stuck 2 my calendars chasing up the deadlines... I will be spending lot of time infront of computer I myself being lost ...I never compromised over my sleep during the study holidays but 2de i feel as i do carry 'D Work' also along with my mind and soul ...no wonder if m debuggin some code base even in my dreams.. N I dont want 2 label this as dedication ... Its just coz of the fact m a horse who started running in a race , n need 2 win 2 keep my identity !!!..N yeah only winning horse will be appreciated in this competitive world....wat a Crap ...N i know this life ends when dangling carrots stops xcites me ..bt is it a life !!!!!

      I will get my lost smile back when i think about the moments I cherished in my childhood ..those jovial days with frens ..those late n8 loose control drives ... those days where v as frens were united ... But 2 de meeting up frens itself requires lotz of nerves n efforts.. wat a pain !!! ... Y my life lost its colors ...Y I'm changing myself 2 make myself unhappy ...I dont want changes ..I want reformations, Changes 4 better or I just want those days back !!!! .... I just want to redefine my LIFE !!! .....

      Koi loutade mere woh bite hua din .... koi loutaade woh pyaare pyaare din ....